Days have been dark.

Not a real excuse, I know.
I could write anyway -- it would help. I am sure.
But instead, I seem to float in the darkness ... neither embracing it nor renouncing it.
I haven't forgotten this blog, it is just that I want it to mean something.
What? I don't know. I just want to say something that might inspire someone else to love Jesus like I am trying to.
This time of year is always hard for me. OK, well most times of the year are hard for me .. I seem to be prone to sadness. To feeling alone in a room full of people. What a cliché, I know ... but it is true.
I need a change.
I need a change.
I need a change.

What will it be?

Nettie


O LORD, you are my God; I will exalt you and praise your name, for in perfect faithfulness you have done marvelous things, things planned long ago.
Isaiah 25:1

Slacker?

Not so much.

Good intentioned? Absolutely!

I thought that I would start this blog and have daily, bi-weekly, weekly (???) updates regarding my faith journey. I didn't expect to update monthly. I didn't expect words to fail me ... I thought that I would be able to describe what was happening in my heart.

It turns out that it isn't as easy as I thought. I just can't seem to find the words to express the joys and pains in this journey of mine.

I really wish I could. I know that there are people who need to know that you do not have to be perfect o have Christ in your life. People who need to hear that life is far from easy once you have Christ in your life. People who need to know that the struggle is all worth it.

Those are the people I want to *speak* to. I want to encourage. Those people are just like me.

The month of April was filled with many struggles for me and my family. It was also filled with many blessings.

* My husband got a new, wonderful job. Thank the Lord. "Is anyone among you suffering? Then he must pray. Is anyone cheerful? He is to sing praises." James 5:13

* Property taxes increased so much we aren't sure how we will pay the mortgage - even with the new job. Father, I know You will provide a way. "Worthy is the Lamb that was slain to receive power and riches and wisdom and might and honor and glory and blessing." Revelation 5:12

* DD2 made the honor roll, something she thought she would never do. Praise God, He is faithful. "The works of his hands are faithful and just; all his precepts are trustworthy." Psalm 111:7

* My birthday came and went and was forgotten by some who should have remembered. I live for your remembrance Father, with you I am never alone. "Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands" Psalm 63:3-4

* We ended up not having to pay on our taxes -- we had anticipated owing a very large sum, but through diligence and much searching - we owe nothing. Thank you is not enough Father. "Great is the LORD and most worthy of praise; his greatness no one can fathom" Psalm 145:3

There is much more that I could reflect on ... but all I can think at the moment is How Great Is Our God? He is faithful, He is righteous. The Way, the Truth, and the Life

Amen!

Nettie